The month of February was quite a whirl wind and with all the chaos I easily neglected my blog. The month started off with Kerry getting sick super bowl weekend. On Monday he tested positive for type A flu and by Monday night Aubree and I were running fever as well. Our household was out of commission for a full week but thanks to an early start on tamfliu Bree and I had a much milder case than Kerry did. At least we were all home piled up in bed together. And thanks to my wonderful Mom and Mema, we had food delivered to our door step daily. I LOVE my Momma's potato soup and Mema made sure Aubree didn't go without her beans and cornbread while she was stuck in the house. The country girl loves any kind of beans. We enjoyed a romantic night at Olive Garden in celebration of Valentine's Day. There was nothing more perfect than spending time with my two loves. And although Kerry had class after dinner, I still enjoyed a lil shopping with my lil love bug. Aubree and I also made cute, mini cupcakes for her grandparents and class party on Tuesday. They turned out so precious and were very yummy and fun to bake! It was as perfect as any Monday could be. I enjoyed a fun Saturday night in the big city with my girlfriends in celebration of Mandi's upcoming marriage. We stayed at a very modern hotel, Aloft and ate fresh sushi at Kiniche and then topped the night off at Ghost Bar. Which I must say has the most awesome city scape view I have ever seen in the Dallas area. We didn't run into any famous stars at Ghost Bar but I will admit we felt like for one night we were the rich and famous. LOL! It was so much fun and a great night of female bonding. The following weekend was the couple shower for Matt and Mandi and it was another great night with wonderful couples and families. On the 24th I went to see my endocrinologist for a routine check up. I took Aubree hoping to enjoy a little more time with her before I took her to school. Well, the appointment went south real fast when I told the doctor that based on an ultrasound I had done it looked like the tissue had changed. She immediately wanted another FNA(biopsy) and I certainly wasn't counting on that since we had just had one a few months prior. I guess I was sorta in denial and trying to make lightly of the change until the doctor expressed her concern. Well Aubree stood right there beside me holding my hand as the doc stuck a HUGE needle into my neck four times to collect the sample. Aubree didn't even shed a tear. She was so brave and mature. Next I was off to the lab for some blood work and then would be waiting about seven days for a phone call from the doctor. Meanwhile, we celebrated the union of our two dear friends at Stone Oak Ranch. It was a beautiful ceremony and a great reception. Aubree really did not like her Momma dancing at all. Every time she would realize I was on the dance floor she would pull my back off. But I love to dance and I would wait til she was playing and dancing with the other lil girls and sneak right back out there. he-he! Besides, isn't she too young to already be embarressed by her Momma?? At home we turn the radio up and dance all the time. I was surprised she had such a beef with it, but she clearly did. One thing that we have both been enjoying lately is playing at the local park a couple times per week. This is perfect weather and the mosquitos haven't taken over yet. We have so much fun and I even managed to sneak in a few pictures. Aubree's joyful laughter and those memories are PRICELESS! It has been a tradition to spend Sunday afternoons at our second home with the Dugan's. We have enjoyed this beautiful sunshine outdoors. The guys throwing horse shoes while the kiddos zoom around on the four wheelers and us women enjoy relaxing in the warm air. Its really a perfect, relaxing way to end the weekend. I received a call from my doctor early Monday morning saying the pathology report came back saying I had a follicular lesion with Hurthle cell neoplasm. The doctor requested a second opinion and had me do more blood work. In the mean time I was trying to stay true to what I know is the truth and not let my mind wonder. The second report came back the same as the first and my blood work was all out of whack again. We discovered I have Hashimoto's thyroiditis, which does explain my hypothyroidism. A Hurthle cell tumor is an uncommon and controversial neoplasm. The pathologic determination of malignancy is difficult as the architectural and cytological features of the benign and malignant tumors overlap. FNA is useful only to establish the presence of Hurthle cell neoplasm. The final diagnosis is dependent on histological analysis of the surgical specimen. Therefore, the only safe way to tell what we are dealing with is to have it removed. This has been a very scary realization and I am reluctant to have my thyroid removed but at this point have no other option. I am diligently praying for the tumor to be benign and for the small uncertainties not to cloud my mind. In all honesty, I am fearful of surgery and uncomfortable with the idea of having a scar across my neck but at this time those are minor worries and I am focusing right now on doing what needs to be done. I do believe in the power of prayer and would gladly ask everyone to pray for a good outcome. I have found comfort in several scriptures but this week am reading in the book of Peter and am reminded in Peter 1:1-10 why God gives us trials in our lives. This has been an eye opening experience to say the least. I have an appointment with the surgeon on Monday the 14th and am ready to get this show on the road. For the remainder of this week I am enjoying this beautiful weather and every precious moment God blesses me with. I will use the trials we are faced with to grow closer to God and to my family. I am so blessed and often we get caught up in worldly things and take for granted our health and our amazing bodies and our loved ones. I could go on forever but to keep it short, this is a life changing experience and I have to realize that God is in control and with us every step of the way. I find peace in God!